im confused!!!

help me...

dat is d 1st word i heard dis morning when i woke up...
my best frenz asking 4 a help in her luv life...
wel...im may not b a gud advisor (since i dun hav bf myself)...but at least i cud console her...
i gues...huhu....

then,it struck me
while im bz helping people around me
who is helping me???

i gues no 1 does
cz i cant accept any help frm any1
at least 4 now...huhu....
im hurt bcz of dis thought...

if i hav a choice
i would go back 2 d time
where i cud stil playing around my house
without no worries 4 what is waiting
in my later life...

if i hav a choice
i would nvr let him go
or leaving him 2 waits me til he died
cz now i am 2
is wondering what is dying feel like????

if i hav a choice
i would do my best
2 b a gud daughter 4 my parents
no longer in hot pants n singlets
evn inside my own rum...

but dat is impossible
dat is what i made of
im a girl like dat
ful of notyness, clumsy
but now im jz aint nobody...

what cn i do 'bout it???
i cudnt turn back d time...
myb i should jz accept
d fact dat im diferent
i dun hav enough time now
2 feel regret/anythin
cz im losing my grip....