am i a stupid gal????

i was wondering lately...
y do i care whether he likes me/not
d answer is of cz not...
he show no sign at al dat he do cares 4 me
but i want him 2 pay his attention on me
dat is imposible rite???
huhu....i must b mad 4 wanting it dat way
wel,all i cn do now is 2 sit behind his back n look at him 4 all d time dat i hav

i jz want 2 likes him...dat all
i wont b so greedy 2 ask him 2 stay wit me
but i feel so lost when i know how he act towards others gals out there...
i wanna b 1 of them
i think he know i like him
dat is y he is keeping his distance frm me
huhu....funny...i wont bother 2 look at him again
aftr dis...aftr al, he is not made 4 me...

im going 2 act natural aftr dis
smile when i c him
laugh when d others r around us
n nvr evr again send him a msg/coment/ym him!!!!
i jz gonna prove 2 him dat he is messing wit a wrong gal
me??? i would nvr cry bcz of a man
n he is not d guy dat worth my tears 2...
im jz having a crush on him...dat al...

it is realy,ina???
r u sure???
dis question keep pops up in my mind...
i know i am lying 2 myself
but i dun hav any choice
i want 2 stay as a frenz 2 him
evn if it is going 2 b like dat al d time...
cz i choose dat way 2 luv him....

4 dat guy,congrats!!!
u took my heart awy n run wit it
but u nvr knew how i want u r heart back 4 me so badly
nah, i must b realy stupid 4 thinking dat we gonna make it
when in ur heart,mind n soul...
im jz d gal next door...
where u would nvr set eyes on
evn if we meet in a deserted coridor...

wel, i would stil tel u dis...
i stil wanna luv u
cz u r d guy dat cud take my breath awy
evn wit only a little smile
or calling my name..
cz u r d 1st guy dat filling my heart
4 d 1st time when i step in dis uni...
n u would alwiz stay dat way....

i stil wanna luv u
n stil wanna thx u
4 giving such a sweet but short memories
of us being 2gthr 2 watch movie
when i was siting next 2 u
feeling so cold frm d outside
but so warm frm d inside of me cz i hav u
next 2 me...

i stil remember d smell of u
dat stick on ur sweater
so nice n makes me wonder
cud i hav dis sweater n u 4eva???
n d way u laugh, u sit n talk next 2 me
its gonna b picture so tightly around my mind
as i wanna memories it 4 al d lifetime i got....

i wanna kiss ur shadow
when i step on dat station
where only 2 of us were there
u took hold of my arms
n i touch ur body as we were laughing
n running 2 catch d bus
n standing inside d train
where i cud feel ur heartbeat...

cool....i gonna luv u
so if u dun mind
let me luv 4 al d time
as i luv u what u r
cz u r ****** ****.....