aku butterfly????

idup adlh sebuah p'jlnan m'cri kebahagiaan
sekaligus kehilangan k'bahagiaan yg lain
idup xkn dpt sume yg kte inginkn
krn idup perlu m'buat pilihan
atau x punya pilihan langsung

begitu la aku blaja ttg cnta
ttg idup
ttg brani m'lpskn & menghadapi

dari sebuah p'jlnan yg pnuh bln,matahari
& bintang2....
sume x sme lg skng
krn pelakonnya pun
sdh sgt b'beza......

hoho.....

2day...
i hang out wit a few frenz...
i hav jz realised how cool r they....
great!!!!
i seems 2 hav 4gotten how i miss dat STUPID GUY who leave me unbreath here...

we watched death race
funy story...
cool,creepy n action packed
what a breath taking sight!!!!

haha...
wish we cud hang out like dat again...
miss ya stil STUPID GUY!!!!!

miss him n can't stp frm doing dat....
i must b mad now....

i havent met him 4 2 days now
wonder where he has been????

dear GOD,
plz let me 2 hav a glimpse of him 2mrrw
evn 4 jz a minutes...
plz....

i need 2 capture his face now...
it wil b realy hard 2 c him often aftr dis...
let him stay 4eva here in my heart...

plz GOD...
this is my wish 4 2nite...

1 in a milion????

u 1 in a milion....

sumtime i cn hate u evryday
sumtime u cn talk 2 evry1 u c
arent there r any1 who cn make me stay???
u r d sign frm d sky sent 2 me...

u 1 in a milion
once in a lifetime
u make me discover what lifes doesnt purpose...

i'll b looking 4 dat special 1
n i had been searching 4 some1 2 b my luv
when i thought dat al d hope was gone
u were smiled
there u were
n dat was gone....

i'll alwiz remember how we met dat day
feeling like dis bubble burn inside me
i was alwiz knew dat dis is 4 what i pray
it was u
u r d 1
d 1 4 me....

am i a stupid gal????

i was wondering lately...
y do i care whether he likes me/not
d answer is of cz not...
he show no sign at al dat he do cares 4 me
but i want him 2 pay his attention on me
dat is imposible rite???
huhu....i must b mad 4 wanting it dat way
wel,all i cn do now is 2 sit behind his back n look at him 4 all d time dat i hav

i jz want 2 likes him...dat all
i wont b so greedy 2 ask him 2 stay wit me
but i feel so lost when i know how he act towards others gals out there...
i wanna b 1 of them
i think he know i like him
dat is y he is keeping his distance frm me
huhu....funny...i wont bother 2 look at him again
aftr dis...aftr al, he is not made 4 me...

im going 2 act natural aftr dis
smile when i c him
laugh when d others r around us
n nvr evr again send him a msg/coment/ym him!!!!
i jz gonna prove 2 him dat he is messing wit a wrong gal
me??? i would nvr cry bcz of a man
n he is not d guy dat worth my tears 2...
im jz having a crush on him...dat al...

it is realy,ina???
r u sure???
dis question keep pops up in my mind...
i know i am lying 2 myself
but i dun hav any choice
i want 2 stay as a frenz 2 him
evn if it is going 2 b like dat al d time...
cz i choose dat way 2 luv him....

4 dat guy,congrats!!!
u took my heart awy n run wit it
but u nvr knew how i want u r heart back 4 me so badly
nah, i must b realy stupid 4 thinking dat we gonna make it
when in ur heart,mind n soul...
im jz d gal next door...
where u would nvr set eyes on
evn if we meet in a deserted coridor...

wel, i would stil tel u dis...
i stil wanna luv u
cz u r d guy dat cud take my breath awy
evn wit only a little smile
or calling my name..
cz u r d 1st guy dat filling my heart
4 d 1st time when i step in dis uni...
n u would alwiz stay dat way....

i stil wanna luv u
n stil wanna thx u
4 giving such a sweet but short memories
of us being 2gthr 2 watch movie
when i was siting next 2 u
feeling so cold frm d outside
but so warm frm d inside of me cz i hav u
next 2 me...

i stil remember d smell of u
dat stick on ur sweater
so nice n makes me wonder
cud i hav dis sweater n u 4eva???
n d way u laugh, u sit n talk next 2 me
its gonna b picture so tightly around my mind
as i wanna memories it 4 al d lifetime i got....

i wanna kiss ur shadow
when i step on dat station
where only 2 of us were there
u took hold of my arms
n i touch ur body as we were laughing
n running 2 catch d bus
n standing inside d train
where i cud feel ur heartbeat...

cool....i gonna luv u
so if u dun mind
let me luv 4 al d time
as i luv u what u r
cz u r ****** ****.....

perhaps,perhaps,perhaps...

u wont admit dat u luv me
n so how am i eva 2 know
u only tel me
perhaps,perhaps,perhaps

a milion time i ask u
n then i ask u over
again u only answer
perhaps,perhaps,perhaps

if u cant make ur mind now
we'll nvr get started
n i dun wanna b wine up
being parted broken hearted

so if u realy luv me
say yes but if u dont dear
confessed n plz dun tel me
perhaps,perhaps,perhaps...

im confused!!!

help me...

dat is d 1st word i heard dis morning when i woke up...
my best frenz asking 4 a help in her luv life...
wel...im may not b a gud advisor (since i dun hav bf myself)...but at least i cud console her...
i gues...huhu....

then,it struck me
while im bz helping people around me
who is helping me???

i gues no 1 does
cz i cant accept any help frm any1
at least 4 now...huhu....
im hurt bcz of dis thought...

if i hav a choice
i would go back 2 d time
where i cud stil playing around my house
without no worries 4 what is waiting
in my later life...

if i hav a choice
i would nvr let him go
or leaving him 2 waits me til he died
cz now i am 2
is wondering what is dying feel like????

if i hav a choice
i would do my best
2 b a gud daughter 4 my parents
no longer in hot pants n singlets
evn inside my own rum...

but dat is impossible
dat is what i made of
im a girl like dat
ful of notyness, clumsy
but now im jz aint nobody...

what cn i do 'bout it???
i cudnt turn back d time...
myb i should jz accept
d fact dat im diferent
i dun hav enough time now
2 feel regret/anythin
cz im losing my grip....